Thank you so much to everyone who voted for me every day, and in some cases, multiple times per day. Haha. You guys are so wonderful and amazing! I could not have made it to the second round without you!
Things are getting down to the wire now and these first few days are going to be critical. I know a month of voting is tiring, but please try to keep me in your thoughts and vote every day. It takes less than a second.
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I've noticed that they are now requiring voters to enter Captcha's to validate votes.
I am glad to see this, because I found it hard to believe that certain people garnered 11,000 votes in just three days. It's possible, but still hard to believe. I'm excited that this round of voting will be fair and accurate!
I can't help but feel a resurgence of some not-so-great feelings from my childhood. My mom got taken in by some talent scouts at the mall when I was like 13 or 14. She showed them my picture and they "loved" it and told her that she should take some more photos of me and bring the photos and yours truly to a huge hotel in Houston to be seen by judges from a bunch of different magazines. So, my dad took off work (which was a big thing, because he was our only source of income, so he rarely ever missed a day of work) which made me feel super important and special or whatever.
We drove a couple hours to get to this big hotel and there were so many other kids with their parents with numbers on...like...I dunno..cattle. That's how it felt in hindsight. I was asked to walk across a stage in front of all of these judges and then shuffled before them in a long line going from right to left.
I remember that many of them never even looked at me as I shuffled by. They just stared down at their papers. I knew at that moment that my number wasn't going to be called at the end of the day and sure enough, it wasn't. I remember the drive home was just the worst for me. My parents were super cool about it, but I felt like I let the whole family down. I felt like such a failure.
Now all of a sudden, I'm getting all of those old feelings bubbling up. I'm basically on display for the whole nation to judge and it's very likely that I'll be rejected once again. So, I'm trying to be as emotionally distant about all of this as I possibly can, but it's really hard....
I am still hopeful! Thank you for your kindness! Here's some disco house to bop to while you vote. :D